It was all my wishful thinking.

2006-11-26T01:40:00.000-08:00

Moved t LJ!!!!! http://jewelsandgold.livejournal.com/

Relink me. Cheers =)

2006-11-20T17:35:00.000-08:00

God please let the next paper be easier fer my baby t handle. She has been pushing herself so hard all day long... But the paper is just so blady fucking hard fer her t handle. She has been feeling so stressed up lately 'cuz of this exam. It hurts so much. It's just fucking hurting t see her so upset.. Sighs. &please take awy her headache, PLEASE! )" Baby must eat the headache panadol I bought fer ya okays?

Baby's sleeping right now. &I just fucking called her and disturbed her.. I didnt know she was asleep. Pouts. Really terribly sorry baby!

I dont want anything in the world..
I just want her t be happy.

JIAYOU JIAYOU baby!

2006-11-18T02:14:00.000-08:00

Jealousy's an ugly word.

I just need you by my side =)

T you: Silly, I am sure you're gonna make it thru this one month okays. Though it's very tough, which I fully understand. But I am gonna make sure I go thru tgt with you okays... If you're willing t give me your hands =) Seeing ya so stress just makes my heart ache. I DONT WANT ANY OF THAT. Pouts.

2006-11-12T23:57:00.000-08:00

The world seems a lil' much more beautiful now that I've you back by my side (:

ilu

2006-11-09T21:00:00.000-08:00

I had so much t blog about earlier.
But now my mind's in a total blank.

I'm feeling emo. Really emo.

I NEED A TANN SO BADLY!
And I need a money tree tooooo!

Anyways someone get me that ADIDAS BAG!!! Urgh. It was love at first sight. But.. I've promised twin that I'll buy her bag if she cant sell it awy online. O wells! I shant whine, her bag's pretty too la (: BUT STILL URGH I WANT THAT ADIDAS BAG! I LUST!! -bite lips and shows puppy eyes-

Blady Eric, better miss me while you're at aussie.

Twin is my pts now (: loves

Okays I wanna end off by saying I miss BBinc, Rachel Cheong, Josephine, Maybelle, Angeline, Liting, Daphne, Nichole and Christina really much! Meet up soon babes!
Ps. Sharon and Maine I miss you two too but we just saw each other la (:

~~I dont deserve your love.~~
I cant even accept you fer who you are.
You deserve someone better.

No one new is t replace you.
Evn though I've given up..
I've nevr stopped loving you.
I still love doing things fer you.
Period.

I'm sure you're able t move on..
Because apparently even before I gave up,
you alr had a crush..
( which made me fucking jealous
and I wish I'll nevr feel this way agn )

Can anyone see it.
I am tearing inside.
So badly.

2006-10-21T01:37:00.000-07:00

Thanks fer the cake and the birthday song baby (:

2006-10-20T14:49:00.000-07:00

I want t be with you more than anything else in the world.

Why would you feel that I dont care.

)"

I never ever wanna hurt you.
I'd rather hurt myself than t make you cry..

If only you could walk thru the doors of my mind

2006-10-17T20:14:00.000-07:00

My birthday is coming near.
You asked what I want..
Just having you by my side is all I'm asking fer.

2006-10-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

The more I dig, the deeper it gets..

I want t get out of this hole,
but I feel that it's too deep.
So I just keep on digging,
too scared t sit and think.

Everyday I dig and dig,
but some days I just wish I could stop.

I could feel you drifting away from me..
Further and further..
That I couldnt even feel you.
Not anymore )"

I dont even know if you care anymore

2006-10-07T12:47:00.000-07:00

You are everything I want 'cause you are everything I'm not.

Please tell me you wont ever get too far from me..

Shrugs

Hoping fer the best.
Just hoping nothing happens.

2006-09-27T23:22:00.000-07:00

I;m so glad things are aiight now.
I;m really so sorry about last night.

I swear I;ll never evr let that happen again.
I swear I never evr want ya t be unhappy again.
I swear I;d try my best t be there if you evr need me.

I just wanna see that smile on your face..
Nothing else matters.

I;d do anything fer a smile, holding you 'till our time is done.

I love you.

In my dreams it;s me and you, it;s there I saw it all come true

2006-09-26T01:20:00.000-07:00

I fucking regretted hanging up ya call.
I am really sorry..
Fuck, what;s done is done DESIREEEE!
No point saying sorry... Shrugs

I wanted t call ya t cheer ya up but...
I really didnt expect things t turn out this way..

I cried, yet again.
I cried because I;m really so afraid of losing ya..
But guess I am really losing ya this time )"

Fear jabbed at my insides like needles..
The fear in me is here t stay fer the night.

O wells! You just told me t fuck off )"

Can someone tell me what should I do?
My mind;s in a whirl right now..

I am feelin' really forlorn

Ps. Thanks fer that hug, Shawn =3

2006-09-23T00:32:00.000-07:00

Msn screwed up

Pouts MISSING MY BABY SO MUCH ): She;s currently working. Hope she;s doing fine.. Darn her hp;s so fuckin' screwed up cant even text her. Or is it mine? Apparently, she cant even receive a single text from me.. Rahs

O wells!
I can only get my new phone during the month of oct.
Holy crap

Girl, you're every woman in the world t me

2006-09-18T20:29:00.000-07:00

I broke down during work yesterday. I think all my colleagues were kinda shocked t see that. I;m really sorry guys. Thanks James and Carine fer trying t cheer me up anyways! (:

-jumps around- I;m finally getting a new phone. Hope I can get it together with baby.. But still havent decide t get which model pouts. Think most likely will be changing my hp no. as well because most prolly will be changing t student plan. This phone of mine is really screwing up. Like yesterday, I was talking t my twin when half way thru the conversation, the line got cut off and my hp was switched off... Aiight 'nuff said.

Twin: Sorry I called you t cry again.

Fuck. I cant stay at this house any longer. As long as my mum;s around, I can feel myself dying a lil' more inside... Her caustic tongue really aggravate me, all the time. I feel like running away from here! It;s going beyond my limit... Fuck.

Baby we;ll try not t let what happened last night t repeat itself again okays!
Hope we wont quarrel over that matter that prick us again.

I would rather hurt myself than t evr make you cry.
ilu*

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart.
Fer times when my life seems so low.
it would make me believe what tomorrow could bring..

Air Supply - Every Woman In The World

2006-09-15T12:39:00.000-07:00

My hp is so screwed.Dear's right I've t get a new phone ASAP.Okays I'm missing her so much..Perhaps going down later t find her (:

Sighs my dear's bike got knocked by some blady farker.Pouts.I dont wanna see her feelin' so upset..How I wish I could be there t hug her and kiss her probs away..Baby,sorry couldnt be there fer you last night.Hugs u

**
Twin,I'm so sorry I called you last night and cried without telling ya what happened.Hugs.

JoJo - Too Little Too Late.

2006-09-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

Beautiful love

Lost within your darling eyes

You make me feel so beautiful

And I'll make this love last forever...

**Dear,all the best fer your tmr's quiz!I've total faith in you.Believe in yourself k-Kisses!**

Ps.Sorry about your bike baby.I wish I can do something.Chin up sweetie.Lemme share help you pay the repair k-Hugs you my love-

2006-09-13T23:00:00.000-07:00

I wanna be the one who's holding you 'till our time is done

2006-09-08T00:48:00.000-07:00

Get ready t laugh people..I"M 48kg!!!Faints.

I lay beside you at night,my arms around you;
it is the perfect way t end the day.

All the time in between while we're apart;
I miss you terribly.
But it is a perfect day,fer I carry you in my heart

I miss you
):

Keayern: OKAYS better drink my LUO HAN GUO ah!Know you hate it...And I still brought 2 bottles.BLEAH!Want you t get better what..Heh love u.

2006-09-06T00:22:00.000-07:00

I like how your lips gently pressed against mine.

I give my heart t you 'cause nothing can compare in this world t you..

I love you

Keayern: CAN YOU PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF.Drink lots of water and rest well k.Sorry that I nag a lot..Seriously I'm feelin' damn heartache when you're sick.Sighs.

2006-09-03T20:35:00.000-07:00

Your body close t mine.
Our hearts beat in time.
With a smile of simple pleasure,
this moment should last forever.

I love you.
(:

2006-09-02T23:49:00.000-07:00

(:
I've reserved a place fer you.
You'll be placed inside my heart where there will only be you.
Only you can have the keys t my heart..

But...
Will you be the one,the only one I'll only love with all my heart?

You held me in your warm embrace.
I close my eyes,submersing myself in that moment....
And if only time could stand still at that very moment.

PS.I'm willin t give you all my time t get over her.
I know it's isnt easy at all.
But I'll wait no matter what..
You've captured my heart,so I wont give up that easily.
Trust me okays?

2006-09-02T12:38:00.000-07:00

~~I'm not sure if we were meant t be~~
Still I made my way just t see
If I could find out that you were the one fer me

You brought a ray of sunshine t my life

2006-09-01T17:48:00.000-07:00

Okays so I changed my url fer some reasons..And not planning t tell anyone,perhaps some of my darlings.

Hmmmm my mood swing's terrible.I dont know how I'm feelin' right now...Kill me will yer!

i miss her):

2006-08-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

(:
Whenever I think about you, my heart skips a beat.

2006-08-30T20:29:00.000-07:00

Blogger actually ate up my previous post.WTF

I miss you la. ):

2006-08-29T11:05:00.000-07:00

So yours truly decided t blog after so long (: So do anyone misses me? Just tag me and tell me will you 'cause I know you do.....

I've been going out practically the whole of last week. Okays not exactly, Wed - Sat I was actually slogging my guts out during work la.. Actually I cant really remember what I did last week. I'll just sum up what I did on Sun and yesterday.

Sunday;

Helped up at the SACA Road Race 2 together with Rach dear.
Rain started pouring and I was drenched.
Lunched at Pasta Mania with Rach before heading home..
Took a quick shower and head t IHM Church.
Dined at Yio Chu Kang together with Twin and Zt!
And lastly both sexayyes sent me home (:

Monday;

Wenta Suntec t take my pay.
Met up with Rach dear and Muah Cheeeee!
Head t Lavender and bought a top.
Dined at Kovan with Twin..

Regreted buying that top 'cause apparently it kinda made my boobies a lil' bigger. It's tight fitting la.. EEEEE-YERRR! So I've decided t ask Twin t help me sell it online :D

Digressing, my stomach was feelin' upset on Sunday night okays.. The pain was excruciating! MR TV ADDICT was fuckin' sweet. She came all the way down t my house t pass me med. And apparently I was sleeping when she was outside my house. And she had sucha hard time searching fer somewhere t hide the med. HEH. You found it in the end, THANK U SO MUCH. :D

LOOK AT THIS AWESOME VIDEO. How I wished I was there..

( click play t proceed )

Could it be that I have found you?
Could it be, oh Lord I pray..
Just one thing I ask of you.
If you're out there waiting,
you'll try t find me too?

Robbie Williams - Supreme.

2006-08-13T12:51:00.000-07:00

Sentosa with twin turned out really badly. I wasnt even a lil' tann and then tornado appears..

First thing that crossed our mind was "Are we gonna die?" Fer a split second, I really thought that tornado was gonna kill us. Fuck. Instead of running fer life, people stood still and took pictures of the tiny tornado. And we on the other side continue t indulge in our ice-cream and laughing. I was grimaced how those people reacted t that. Okay then suddenly the wind got really strong and rain started pouring. It was until that then we started t run.. Apparently the shelter we were in didnt do any good, rain was still splashing in. We were drenched. Gawd, twin even somehow risked her life t get my slippers back. Thought she almost flew away. Darn I was so touched. Love u twin! :D

Saw this really cute butch at sentosa's 7-11 (: She works there and twin asked if I want her no. so she could go ask from her. I reckon twin was kinda irritated by me 'cause I kept saying that she's cute. As a matter of fact, she is, and really! Gawd I was all of a dither, but in the end I chose not t. Hello, i'm not that desperate. Okay 'nuff of that. Chuckles. Bought a towel from there 'cause apparently I didnt bring mine. Initially was thinking not t bathe but I was like drenched so ya.. Ate two cups of cup noodles before we head t the shower.

Oh did I mention that a guy asked fer my no. And 'course I didnt give him. Holy crap, my hair was in sucha mess as I was drenched. So I reckon they're playing truth or dare lah... Tsk.

Rushed t church after that then dined with Ai Ren at CP.. Then she meet her 'crush'. Hope things work out fer you two (: but remember dont ever try t rush things.. Get t know him much better first yeah?

I have been suffering from bouts of insomnia. ): I think I need sleeping pills.... Urgh.. Pimples, ulcers, cramps blah blah.. All come popping out at the same time. Whyyyyyyyy ):):

On a lighter note, LIVERPOOL won the Community Shield. Whooopeee! :DDD

Me & You - Cassie.

2006-08-09T00:49:00.000-07:00

O'rite just came out from the shower. Damn I feel so good. But if only I had a big tub in my toilet where I could have a foam bath and just take a good nap. Sheesh! Before I took my shower, I smelled so bbqish! Eeeee yer! But now I smell so damn good. :D

Went over t Aunty Maria's house fer bbq. I'm so gonna be fat, literally. I ate quite a lot! And drank 4 small cups of Hoegaarden. ( in case you dont know it's a type of beer ) It tastes so much like Tiger Beer though. Beer belly + bbq food + Supper=Big Tummy Fats. ):

Digressing, I think you should indulge in any good food when there is. It's utter folly t tell me you're going on a diet when there's good food right infront of you. I'd say you're really dumb, literally. Okay lah after that continue whining t your friends that you're fat. Laughs. That's what I'd always do.

Alas, I never seem t slim down or perhaps see a lil' of those fats go away. I do regular exercise and even tried t eat lesser meat and fried food but t no avail. Ah I'm feelin' forlorn!):

Gawd, my mum's def having her menopause. Screaming day and night. Why do I always have t abide t her caustic tongue... Urgh.

Happy Birthday Singapore. Love u.

Couldnt believe Gen's sucha patriot. She was so patriotic that she called me and screamed at the top of her lungs and told me she loved Singapore so much and feelin' ecstatic t go National Stadium t watch NDP. But I have t admit I do love Singapore and 'm def proud t be a Singaporean. Grins.

Kaira Gong - My Island Home.

2006-08-06T13:41:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO AI REN & BERLINE!!
(:

Last night caught the fireworks tgt with my clique. :D*
Dined @ Cine's Maestro Bistro.
Cabbed home.

Bitch: You shouldnt jest 'bout such thing. Couldnt believe you actually did that! Fuck.

2006-08-02T14:46:00.000-07:00

27July2006.

" Let eternal rest grant unto him ( Joseph, my grandfather ), O lord.

And let perpetual light shine upon him.

May he rest in peace. "

Grandpa has passed on..
He has return t our lord.
Where he'l be leading a new life with no more sufferings.
But he'l still always be alive in our heart.
He'l always be cherished by all of us.
He'l always be remembered.
Rest In Peace Ah Gong.

Ps. Learn t cherish your loved ones while they're still around.

2006-07-27T23:30:00.000-07:00

Gdbye Grandpa.

):

2006-07-26T15:27:00.000-07:00

Man, can I get my mum t sit on a durian.
Or just stuffffff some fishballs into her mouth.
Period.
Someone bring me t Maldives! Unfortunately I couldnt upload any pics ( dont know what's wrong with that f* thingy ) t share those bootiful pics with yall.

I wanna run away...
T a far far far far far far far away island...
And there'l just be you and me

where are you
where are you
where are you ..

And I've been searching fer someone t give me love.

2006-07-24T12:22:00.000-07:00

Edited

Jen: What's your bf doing?
Me: I dont have one dear..
Jen: ( looking shocked ) WHAT! Are you sure.. Sucha beautiful babe like you..
Me: ( laughs ) Fuck you lah. From the bottom of your heart?! ( blush )
Jen: Yeah. C'mon lemme introduce t you...
Me: ...Okay i know you're gonna introduce yourself.
Jen: Nods. If you dont mind being the concubine.
Me: ( stick out tongue and walks away.. )
-

Why cant it be ME who's lying over there. Seeing my grandfather so painful and all really makes my heart ache.): Please pray he'd regain consciousness soooooon!

Apparently, the doc says "There's no more hope". I beg t differ! I refused t accept it. Though I share the same sentiments as godma, we all should be more realistic. And respect God's decision. If it's time fer him t go, no one can stop him. Even though we feel reluctant, we'l stil have t accept the fact. O wells!): Just praying fer a miracle right now.

Digressing, is giving up a seat fer an elderly that hard. I was on board of bus70 when I saw this old lady standing when this couple could have stood up and gave that seat t her but instead they were smooching and hugging away. Fuck, I couldnt stand it so I gave up my seat t her. She was smiling t me thru out the journey. And I was thinking she must have be a lesbian when she was young. Laughs. In conclusion, I think people should learn from me! Period.

Good grief! Can anyone tell me whyy do lizards exist. I was bathing halfway when this lizard came crawling in. OMFG I was appalled as I was really afraid of lizards. I literally screamed at the top of my voice and I almost ran out of the toilet naked but it was impossible. And I could have jumped out of the window if it comes crawling towards me. Fuck.

Can I find a pretext fer not going work later. I'm feelin' a lil' lazy though. Yawns.. O'rite nuff' said, I better go get ready. Laters!

Promiscuous - Nelly Furtado ( Feat. Timbaland )

And where are you now, now that I need you?

2006-07-13T12:27:00.000-07:00

Edited

Changed of layout. (:
-

My grandpa fell down, yet agn.
And needs t be operated straight away and I'm feelin' apprehensive.
'Cause according t the doc, the chances are slim.
WTF just do your f* best pleaseeeee.
AHH I really do hope he's gonna be o'rite.
I'm really so scared.. ):

Yesterday acc gf at EastSpringSecSchool.
Selling uniform's really tedious but how nice of me t acc Rach, I know.
Okay anyways I received this really disturbed msg from some anonymous.
And it's absolutely monstrous fer someone t be doing that!
Urgh..OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG ):
( text me and I'l tell you what 'cause I'm not planning t post it here )

She's The One - Robbie William.

2006-07-10T23:01:00.000-07:00

So ITALY's the winner of the World Cup 2006. Whoopeeee~
:D*

Actually France played really well too. But in orderr t have a winner, there has t be a runner-up. France you did great too. (: Okay so what exactly did Materazzi said t Zidane that made him so agitate that Zidane had t thrust his forehead into the chest of Materazzi. Only both of 'em knows. I thought it was pretty funny though. HAHA. But despite all that, Zidane's still the Best Player Of The Tournament. Claps) Boy, I seriously cant wait fer the next World Cup. Heeee.

I didnt get a wink of sleep last night 'cause apparently some bug attacked my poor lil' tummy. Hit the toilet several times and apparently it went on till the next morn that I had t struggle during work. Rahs. I'm feelin' really lethargic nowadays...

Beautiful Love - The Afters.

2006-07-08T23:33:00.000-07:00

MAYBELLE! I'm here t blog 'cause of you okay.

So who's gonna be the one who clinch the WORLD CUP this year. And def, it has t be ITALY. Whyy... 'Cause they've got the best defender CANNAVARO, the best goalkeeper BUFFON, the golden boy TOTTI, amazing strikers like DEL PIERO, GILARDINO and LUCA TONI, amazing midfielders like GATTUSO and PIRLO. And not forgetting GROSSO. :D* ( Hoping England'l clinch it one day, yes one day I know the day will be here )

Fuck. Finals on Mon morn. And I'm working the next day. Grrrr. But I'l still be staying up t watch. Holy crap is the WORLD CUP FINALS peopleeeeeee.

So Maybelle, is that considered a post? Anyways I'm really sorry I cant acc you tmr.. And hope you're not upset 'cause he wont be around fer awhile. And I know he wont break his promise t you lah. HE DARE! Winks.

Rach dear:Dont get so upset over that fucken jerk okay. He's not worth it at all. He doesnt even deserve sucha wonderful person like you. Just forget that fucker. And dont fret, given your looks and all, you'l def find someone much much better than him, that's fer sure.(: I had fun trying clothes and shopping with you on Thurs btw. HAHA. I'm looking forward t more yeah? Love you babe :D

And if it's real,
I dont want t know.

2006-07-04T12:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NICHOLE !(:

T those who said that X-Men ( The Last Stand ) is boring, fuck you lah. This third one was the best out of the threeeeeee ! ( o'rite minus the part when Scott aka Cyclops and Jean Grey died ) Snortss.

And Professor Charles Xavier didnt die peopleeeeeee. T think I was being lugubrious and actually cried at the very part when Pro. Xav vanished away. Okay the bottom line.. I didnt leave my seat when the show ended, I sat till the er what's that called.. Yknow the one when it shows the name of all those cast, stunts, makeup artist blah blah name... And when all those thingy stop scrolling up, apparently Pro. Xav's mind was actually transfered t another guy. So he's not dead so I reckon that there's gonna be X-Men 4 ! But what my bro said makes sense... There's no more Magneto t fight with so I dont know lah..

So next time when the show end, dont go off immediately. Actually initially I wanted t go off as well, but my bro held me back. And there was actually some people who saw us sitting there and followed suit. Aha.

Digressing, I think Superman Returns is a recommended show and five thumbs up ! You should go catch it 'cause Brandon Routh aka Clark Kent and Kate Bosworth aka Lois Lane is so hottt. Okay no lah the show is great, simply great I should say ! (:

So England is out ! They lost in the penatly, yet agn. Fuck):
O wells, ITALY gogogogogo ! Fer now, that Argentina, Brazil and Holland is out toooo.
Ps. So Ch 5 is finally showing one of the world cup match huh. I'm staying up t watch the match. Italy better thrash Germany. Ahhhhh. But actually whoever wins it I'm not gonna care lah, 'cause Eng's out alr ! Roar.

After All These Years - Silverchair.

2006-06-28T12:05:00.000-07:00

GREAT SINGAPORE SALES is coming t an end and I've yet get my hands on some good discounted stuffs.
-whines)

So who wants t accompany me go SHOPPIN' SHOPPIN' TILL YOU DROP?

Ps. O wells, it's gonna be so tough so tough. England gonna face Portugal this sat. I hope they'l play much better than the previous match against Ecuador. Shrugs.

Pps. Blogger ate up my links and lustlist page. HOW?

Ppps. Hairspray's ( High School Musical ) Zac Efron is fucken hot, people helpppppp.

Evanescence - My Immortal.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

2006-06-22T16:01:00.000-07:00

The soccer fever, world cup madness. I'M LOVIN' IT.
The soccer fever, world cup madness. I'M LOVIN' IT.
Ole ole ole ole~

Havent been updating lately.
O wells, no one really reads my blog so whyy bother..

So Roooney is back in action and Owen is injured and back t England?!
O crapppppp shit. ): ): Roar.
~~Ashley~~ Joe Cole is good good and so good anyways.

Urgh I better stop whingeing 'bout me being broke.
It's time t learn t save some money Desireeee.

I wanna go escape theme park !! Anyone?
Darlin bees let's go Ikea soooon okay?
Missed their meatballs !!

Whyy am I deluding myself.
Knowing that I missed you yet I refused t admit.

So I'l sum up what happened yesterday:

Met up with Liting after so long. Wenta Sentosa.. Basked under the sun and I'm tanned. Yayyy :D
Next head t Suntec t meet Maine and Rachie. Got ma pay and dined at Congress.
Got myself a new shades. Grins grins.

Marilyn Manson - Tainted Love.

2006-06-10T00:47:00.000-07:00

So, the World Cup is like finally here.

It's like once in fuckin' fourrrrrr years. Who's like so dumb t miss it. Fuck and i am ! I dont have cable. Would it kill t buy all the matches, Ch5's like fuckin' rich. I do pay tv licence every year okay. ROAR.

Okay bye.

Bosson - One In A Million.

2006-06-08T13:05:00.000-07:00

Can love really last a lifetime?

Ans: Absolutely - but only if you chuck the fairy tale of living happily ever after. Pay a visit to a nursing home if you want to see proof of lasting love. Recently I spoke to a man whose wife of 60 years was suffering from advanced Alzheimer's disease. He came to sit with her every day and hold her hand. "She's been my best friend since high school," he told me. "We made a promise to stick together." Now that's a love story.
-Jeanne Marie Laskas.

I know love doesnt spells forever.

But i do believe in everlasting love, and if only you're willing t believe in it too.

Okay go on and call me stupid and naive.
Or laugh !

I DONT CARE !

2006-06-06T01:17:00.000-07:00

I need a tann, like SO BAD.
The bottom line is that im a fuckin' white chicken.):
( PSSSST i just bought a bikini, come come adore me Mister Sun. )

Imagine Desi..... FAT AND WHITE !
O my goooooodness. Faints.
Eww.

Anyways, apparently now im trying t turn in early every night lest getting those black rings, 'cause it's so bad that im feelin' so panda now.
So why the fuck am i still blogging..
Rahs.

Nights.

Im at my wits end.
I dont know what's my next plan...
):

2006-06-02T17:03:00.000-07:00

):
T my utter dismay, it biz is filled up too.
Im fuckin' so piqued 'bout it.

I may appear nonchalant infront of you,
but im actually tearing inside.

Im feelin' so lost.
Im feelin' lugubrious.
Shucks, i wish i'd be in school now...
O why the fuck am i writing so much.

O wells !
Im drinking over at Sharon's later !

2006-06-01T22:34:00.000-07:00

He's fuckin' cute, isnt he? But his mum isnt at all...

( I'd kill t bring him back. )

Okay anyways here's a thing fer you t laugh at..
My waist line's 26 ! Faints.
Okay go on and laugh.

Ps. I pray i pray that my hair will grow, soooon ! ASAP !

Pss. Anyways do anyone know what song is this...
For the first time, when i look into your eyes.
For the first timeeeeeee ~
I only know all these..
Tag me if you know yeah? Cheers !

2006-05-31T21:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE JIE !
:D ( BB.inc misses you much )

I cant seem t breathe.
D'you know that i need some space of my own too.
You never listen.
Fuck.

My bra's too tight that i cant breathe la !
Rahs.

Anyways today Zoo-ed with Luie.
I can only say that...
I'l never step into ZOO agn, NEVER !
Roar.

Virtually all the animals were asleep.
Ridiculous !
I've paid 15bucks fer that ! WTF)

Ps. Paul Twohill and Jonathan Leong sang pretty well !
They better get thru..

Pss. No news from school at all... SIGH.
Think most prolly would be studying at clementi ite. Rahs.
But on a lighter note, there's Gracieeeee and Jia Hui there !
I'l miss BB.inc dearly then. ): ): ): and Zt baby. & i wont get t see both pretty Ash and Xiangting. Grrr.

Ifeelmuchbetternowthatidontmissyou.
Ifeelmuchbetternowthatidontthinkofyou.
Icansleepsoundlynowthatidontdreamofyou.

The Chemical Brothers - Hey Girls, Hey Boys.

2006-05-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

Yayyy yayyy, like finally..
X-MEN ( The Last Stand ) opens tmr !
Grins grins.
I f*ckin' cant wait la !
Anyone ? :D

Anyways life's sucha bore...
No meaning at all !
Eat sleep eat sleep eat sleep and eat sleep...
Rahs.

Thus, i've turned into a big fat bitch.
& yes i mean a real BIG F*CKIN' FAT BITCH.
Mess with me and i'l sit on you and squeezeeee !

O wells !
Im trying t kill my boredom away...

Kill me please.

Digressing, i always tend t slouch on the sofa when i watched tv and hunch a lil'
Hence my back's having problem now, it hurts like fuck.
& im walking with ma two legs so open and uh huh i know you'd think otherwise..
No def not sex last night, i feel so like a pregnant lady la !

Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O Mine.

imu

2006-05-23T11:51:00.000-07:00

Edited

I feel so lost and down..
I needa talk t someone.
But there's no one i can turn t.
Who's even willing t listen..

I feel like crying..
But is there anyone who's even willing t let me a shoulder t lean on.

Im on the verge of a mental breakdown.
Whyy am i always in this kinda state ..
Whyy am i always so vulnerable ..
Whyy do i have t make myself look so depressed ..

Frustration whirled around my head every single moment.
I am going t explore with frustration.

I feel so like a ungrown kid.
I feel so naive.
I feel so stupid.
I feel so useless.
I hate myself.

Will someone just give me a tight slap and remind me t grow up !
Will someone just give me a tight slap and wake me up !
Do anyone even care !

I just need someone t tell me that my time is up and that i am no longer needed here.

Just whyy do i even exist...

Im tired..
So tired alr.

Ps.I'd love t drink my life away.....
-

O wells !
It's been a while since i blogged.
But WHO f*ckin' CARES ! HA.

School called me and asked if i'd wanna consider another course. Shrugs.

Met up with Daphyyy after so long ! Yesterday went back t SJC t collect Bestie N's Cert, and i couldnt go in 'cause apparently that f*ckin' security guard refused t let me in. Still thinking i could go back 'cause i missed SJC food... But i f*ckin' needa make an appointment first. WTFF. I was feelin' rather livid though.. So i was outside the school waiting fer Bestie, basking under the HOTT sun.

Caught Grandma's Boy sneak preview last night tgt with Rachel darling, my mum and my cousin. It was damn hilarious and gawd overall it was also a EXCRUCIATING SICK show la ! Thus, i f*ckin' couldnt believe my mum was actually beside me. GASP ! Okay, go catch it and you'l know WHYY ! Laughs.

Digressing, i really cant stand the austere mum of mine ! Anyone'd know whyy...

O'rite anyways HongKong Cafe after that before heading home.
(:

Ps. Whyy the hell there's a f*ckin' Hotel 81 near my house. Laughss.
Pss. That damn f*ckin' sign is telling me im having my period soooon ! ROAR.
Psss. I cant wait fer the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE and Vaunt !!!! Wooohooooo~
Pssss. Backache can be EXCRUCIATING. ):
Psssss. Pardon all the F*CKIN' word in virtually all sentences in my current post. Apparently, literally under the influence of Grandma's Boy. Laughsss.

My heart was beating extremely fast when i saw er...
Rachel, you should know who !
You could see the startled expression i gave yeh.

The reason i have never been able to fathom...
I could feel this rush in my chest.
& a terrible feeling took over me on that very moment !

Thus, im feelin' forlorn.
Loneliness is engulfing me all over !

~~If only time could stop at that very moment.......~~
):

Coheed And Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic.

2006-05-17T21:49:00.000-07:00

Edited

Someone once told me
that dreams do come true..

O wells !
I dont think so.

I still think of you
and it's killing me !

The world cup is drawing near !
I cant wait !
But poor ROONEYYYYYY !
But i heard he's on road t recovery ! :D
But nevertheless, there's still STEVEN GERRARD and OWEN !
Grins grins.
But can someone tell me is Paul Scholes retired ?! ))):
-

Check this video out, it's hilarious ! ;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNkP3_KjPlI
&

Sharon sent me these videos, another hilarious one ! ;
http://youtube.com/watch?v=9tuWFtq0Sso&search=korean%20madness

& this one with Maine darling's contagious laughter ! ;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Zsw_L68NeE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBtpjOT3oxY&search=funni%20videos

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhDJ3siYDqU&search=funni%20videos

& Sharon darling's FLYING CAT, LAYLAY ! ;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hoaZ9x-aCpU

I cant wait t catch THE DA VINCI CODE !

Rihanna - Pon De Replay.

2006-05-16T12:58:00.000-07:00

Carmen and Shane !

Fuckin' HOTT..

Daniella Sea ( Moira ) is kinda hott too.(:
( first pic she's in red )

( Bitch and Daniella )
But her gf Bitch ( her real life partner ) isnt.

Okay this is so random, im f* bored.):

Chris Brown - Run It !

2006-05-12T13:43:00.000-07:00

Edited

O'rite i'l just sum up what happened just now.

Our surprise plan ( planning t surprise her with a cake at her house ) failed 'cause apparently i was late. Cabbed down t town then..
Took prints ! ; Check it out @Fster.
Dined @Cine's Maestro. Dinner was pretty filling.( what an sumptuous and f* FAT meal it is ! ) Surprised her with a sweet and lovely heart shaped cake and sang birthday song.. We stayed there fer 2+++hrs !
Next we head off t Fareast and Maine & myself had a haircut! HERS WAS HOT, YOU SHOULD SEE IT MAN ! Mine was just o'rite but kinda short. & im gonna regret it in no time and im so gonna miss my long hair...):
Bought a new watch tgt with Sharon. :D ( LEARN T SPEND LESSER, DESI ! )

SHARON LIKES THE PRESSIE WE GAVE HER. :DDD I had fun btw babes.. Hope Sharon enjoyed her day.(:

Ps.I missed JOYCE jiejie !

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SHARON DARLING !

ILOVEYOUUUUU.
(:

Ps.Someone's NOT afraid of the bouncer alr la..
WINKS WINKS.

2006-05-11T13:13:00.000-07:00

This is pretty hilarious!
Go ahead click play and watch it babes.(:

MY LUSTLIST!!!

Motorola V3X!
That NewUrbanMale Brazil's bag! / NIKE BAG!
That off shoulder green/black strip top from Fareast!
That shades from Topshop! ; http://photos.friendster.com/photos/54/42/3212445/27762096521720l.jpg
Catch LWORD season 3!!
HIGHER NITEC!):

T-Pain - I'm In Love With A Stripper.

2006-05-09T11:21:00.000-07:00

Putting high hopes on me, yet i've disappoint her agn. Sorry mum. I know you're extremely livid over that. & im alr feelin' vexed 'bout it. So stop spilling hot milk on me please. GEE. Why am i sucha letdown.):

Thinking i could study tgt with my clique. But all of that is down the drain... I know all of you kept telling me t think positive and asking me not t give up. But it's almost IMPOSSIBLE that i'd be given a chance t go back. But of course im not giving up right now. I'd continue waiting until i get a reply. O wells. That is all i could do, WAIT wait and wait. Sigh. Wait till im going crazy soon. Yes, literally.

Didnt put much effort in first semester, hence i've landed myself in this kinda situation. No one is t blame. Alas, i've never seem t put much effort on my studies. Then regretting would start t feel up inside me.. Much t ma indignation, they've given first priorities t the o's takers. Damn that fuckin' school. You could see my face's twisted with anguish. & i am going t explore with frustration, very soon. Im feelin' inferior.):

Anyways, the person i'd miss dearly is my darling RACHEL CHEONG. Im gonna miss those laughing session, be it during lesson in the class or outside school. Those heart t heart talks, those crapping session and etc.. Damn and i surely missed those sun tanning session on the school field. I doubt anyone would do that tgt with me, except her.

O'rite on a lighter note, it's my darling SHARON's birthday this fri. I love that girl. O and of course DEF NOT forgetting you my darling MAINE, i love you too OKAY.(:

Anyhowww, Zeteng please get well soon okay.-hugs your back), and Ai Ren y'know im SO GLAD you're finally back t church. MUACKSSSSS.

O wells. I doubt anyone would even be bothered t read all the above.
Laters!

My excitement is starting t wear off...

Fort Minor - Remember The Name.

L word

2006-05-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

Edited

I missed Rock Climbing!Anyone?

Anyways Accounting fer me instead of Admin, hopefully? But with a mere gpa of 2.8! Shrugs. Shall make a trip t school on Monday personally t show 'em ma sincerity. Y'know im really fuckin' keen t study. If only you'd give me a chance..... -bite lips and show puppy eyes)

I'l never ever give up, no matter what.
HURR, FARTTS!
-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA DEAREST MAYBELLE.
:D

Anyways did i ever mention that i'd marry whoever who gives me a copy of the L WORD. Grins. O and anyhoww, watch this HOT and sexayye video below..

( Carmen and Shane; Until i wake up.wmv )

( kindly wait fer a lil while before it loads, thank u )

Ps.However if you cant see the video, please tag and lemme know.
Cheers!
Or just simply go t this website:
http://www.bolt.com/Lard/video/629084#

Off fer work @my aunt's place now.
BYEBYE people.

Can you tell me why...):
I cant help but keep thinkin' of yeh.):

Coheed and Cambria - The Suffering.

2006-05-02T11:23:00.000-07:00

Im having tuesday blues.): I've been feelin' blue all week though...

Today marks the day of school reopen fer ite. What am i this useless brat wastin' my bloody time blogging this thingy, waitin' t rot soon. ): ):

Anyways,
yesterday spent ma day at ECP tgt with ma family and Mister Sun. Tried blading but apparently i couldnt even balance and i dont even know the right tactic. Practically the whole 5mins i was relyin' on ma bro, grabbin' his hand lest losin' my balance and fall. Gawd sucha loser i am. So in the end, i cycled. Now my arse's so hurtin' like some needles go prickin' it. & btw that bike rental guy wants t know me. & initially i wanted t tell him that "Im not straight"... But as expected he asked from my bro fer my no. TSK!

Im feelin' a lil queer and lethargic, perhaps 'cause i have been sufferin' from insomnia all night or it could be the bad weather.

I feel so weak everytime i think of you.):

Pretty Ricky - Grind With Me.

2006-04-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

I want marshmallow, dipped in chocolate fondue.
Spell H-E-A-V-E-N fer me.-drools)

Changed of layout. Any comments? Lick that bitch or Tag me yeah?

O'rite t sum up what happened today:

Went t ECP fer some kayaking session with Sharon darling. Half way thru in the middle of the ocean, this guy paddled towards me and asked fer my name. Aye, like wot the hell. Anyways Mister Sun's in a good mood today. Im tanned so tanned. Imma happy girl.(:
Cabbed down t Marine Parade fer Ramen noddles and Ice kacang, and
A top from Dorothy Perkins caught both of our eyes, and we bought it tgt. :DDDD

That's 'bout all.

Ps.All lizards should die a painful death.

David Usher - Black Black Heart.

I miss you.
Yet i chose not t text yeh 'cause i wanna get rid of yeh in ma mind.
Every min,
every night, and
every single day im thinkin' of you.
I cant stop missin' yeh.):

2006-04-28T12:59:00.000-07:00

Edited

Just hang up the phone, was talkin' t Vinz. He was feelin' down. & all i did was crapping and laughing. Fuckin' lame. O'rite just hope he feels better la.(:

Anyways y'know one side of my body dread work. Partly 'cause of all those dickhead customers. GEEE. But another side enjoys it. Partly 'cause of my collegues, darlings and one special *eyecandy, iadore. The one who always brighten up my days. & my motivation t go t work. :DDDDDD and i'l miss work when i stopped booking.):

& how irony, im not straight yet all my eyecandies are guys. :S

That's just random.
-

O wells.
I received the reply letter from school alr and im fuckin' piqued 'bout it. & it says the fuckin' same thing, "May 06 Intake have been filled and we are still unable to offer you a place. However, we have placed your name in our waiting list. Should there be any vacancy, we will consider your application for admission." ( they'l only fuckin' consider me ):):): ) All fuckin' bullshit. 'Course they'l give first priorities t the o's takers. In the other words, they think we cant do better la. Fuck.

( sorry fer being so vulgar, im just so pissed )

O and can anyone tell me why is the month of MAY invented?!? :

Maybelle dearest's birthday.
Sharon darling's birthday.
Angeline dearest's birthday.
Joyce Jiejie's birthday.

and Mother's Day.

All falls on the month of May. Tell me im gonna be so broke soon please.-whiness)

O'rite on a lighter note, Sharon, ~~Maine~~ and myself gonna have a date tgt with Mister Sun tmr.
Yay :DDD

Off fer work now.
Byebye people(:

Brandy - Have You Ever.

2006-04-20T11:43:00.000-07:00

Edited

That f* comp screwed up on me, yet agn. & im currently usin' inside comp now. Sheesh. I told yeh that acer guy is gonna make his trip here agn la.
& im down with flu. I always loathed sleepin' with that blocked nose. Sheesh.

O'rite on a lighter note, i made a trip t Candy Empire after work tgt with Rachel darling and Meng Choon and got myself that BIG lolli. I was deliriously happy and was grinning my way home. TEEHEE. But it wasnt that enormous though. HUR.
& that call somehow made me delirious and i was talkin' nonsense all the way that sent both of 'em into a laughin' fit.

C'mon it was merely a ~~call~~ wrongly dialled call from her.
Shut up DESI.

Ps.Those chocolates, damn f* tempting i tell yeh.
I want 'em all!
( dont come tell me the word fat when chocolates are meltin' in my mouth )

Pps.Is money really everything?
I really hate t see my family in this kinda state.): and seein' my parents worrin' this and that really hurts me. ): ):

Im all worn out from work.
Gd night people.
-

PIMPLES BREAKOUT!): ): ): ):

Dont have the habit of doin' stretching after joggin' so hence im achin' all over now. Although i merely ran two big rounds yesterday with gp 'cause we brought gp's adorable dog along! Tsk.

Gp try not t fret 'bout it k? ( you know what ) Everythings gonna be o'rite and so fine. Im sure time is gonna change everything. & always look at the positive side instead of the negative side o'rite? Hugs hugs.

Im gonna get ready fer work.
Laters!

Ps.I want Candy Floss!

Can i tell you that i miss you?

Massari - Real Love.

2006-04-19T12:23:00.000-07:00

Im tanned,very satisfied. :D
So i shall supply Mister Sun with more love by vistin' him more often.But hopefully i wont contract heat stroke or skin cancer by then.Anyways im archin' all over!):

I've gained weight.Im fat,so FAT.Pouts)People please come straight t my face and tell me that im fat.'Cause i wont concede that im fat unless you tell me!( HAHA )O wells.Dont yeh afraid of hurtin' me.Snort)So far only ZETENG dare t tell straight t my face that im fat.HURR.

Henceforth,i reckon no more limewire?!'Cause i've alr received warning letter.As stated in the letter,it's some nosey recording company lawyer complaint so singnet trace down ours.But it was merely 1 pathetic Sun Yan Zi song and they're warnin' me alr.& i dont recall d/l her songs.HUR.Now askin' me t delete the whole system.Fuck.So i reckon henceforth they'l def continue t monitor us.Groan)Mm.So anyone who read this,be careful k?Dont want others t get the letter too la.SHEESH. :/

In other words,No music=NO LIFE.):
"Say no t piracy,buy original". )"
O wells.Yes at lease there's radio la.Laughs.& it's better that i delete 'cause i dont want 'em come knockin' on my door.Sheesh.But why must i be the one...RAHH.Im really down in luck.): ):

Ps.Someone get me that enormous lolli from Candy Empire!!
( Sheesh.Nvm i'l get it myself 'cause i doubt anyone would get it fer me la. )

Pps.Im cravin' fer some chilli crabs.Drools.

& OREO MILKSHAKE's love i tell yeh!

Just some random entry.
'Cause im really bored stuck at home.):
But will be meetin' gp fer some jogging later.
Y'know an excuse fer my mum t step out of the house la.

Let me see you in my dreams agn.

Gwen Stefani - Luxurious.

2006-04-18T11:30:00.000-07:00

Yes im a fuckin' emo bitch so kindly pardon those depressin' post.
& i wanna thanks those people who tagged.(:

A date tgt with Maine darling and Mister Sun yesterday.We start off by taking a slow jog around siloso beach.Then up next was kayaking.Maine was really good at it.(: Anyways let's go rollerblading soon k?

Guess who we saw,XIANG TING!Okay we were really happy upon seein' her.
:D

Short entry 'cause i've got work later on.
Laters!

Ps.Come back soon darlings over at KL.
Grr.

Craig David - Unbelievable.

2006-04-14T17:12:00.000-07:00

Good Friday'
It's a day of fastin' and not fer celebrating.TSKtsk.
( and now im dyin' of starvation soon.Faint. )

What's the use of cryin' over spilt milk.
Desiree,serve you right.
C'mon face it,
Yeh just a f* useless bitch.

Anyone who bothers t even read my blog,
can yeh tell me why im sucha letdown? )"

Latest by 31march.
Only GOD knows if im gonna go in.
*cross fingers.):

Ps.Congrats Sharon Darling agn.
( yeh know what ) Shrugs.

Pps.My bro's sucha f* bastard!

*
Replies ;

Short:
Hi HEIHEI.Thought initially you disapproved of that wonderful name of yours.HAHA.Yeah told yeh im a f* emo bitch la.& anyhow ta-dah here's another emo' post.But anyways thanks fer taggin',yeh take care too k?IM DESIREE not stupid.Hur.(:
-

As i sit here alone thinkin' ~
Images of yeh kept poppin' out.

Destiny Child - Lose My Breathe.

2006-04-13T11:50:00.000-07:00

Morning people.
Im smilin' so brightly like the sun.
'Cause i had a dream 'bout you last night.
(: (: (:

):

A day spent with Gracie and Mister sun yesterday.
There's s'posed t be a gathering but it's cancelled so yeap..

Was tannin' half way when we saw some people Kayaking.'Course we couldnt resist and next we were on the shore ready t kick off.( I wont concede that
initially we didnt know how t paddle, please laugh ) Okay but slowly we picked things up and in the end we got it.We managed t row from a end t another end tgt with the wave.( But was it the right tactic i dont know ) HAHA.But i could only put it in one words,it was FUN.(:

I'd def do it more often.But first 'course i've t build up.So i'd have more strength t paddle.HAHA.Now my whole body's all ache and pain.Teehee.& my feet's feelin' so numb now 'cause of yesterday's cut.

So im endin' it with some pics ;

( The camera made me so fat.): )

( Wrapped head Gracie.HAHA. )

( & count those pimples on ma face.): )

( I look so tiny.Teehee. )

( See those people washin' Merlion )

( Grace took this,VERY NICE )

( Narcissistic bitch )

( That proud PEACOCK who refused t look at us )

( I look so fugly and fuckin' cheena )

( Grace's flying )

After scannin' thru those pics,i really would love t go isolate myself.IM FAT,so fat.):

I havent been sleeping.It's been nights!That's when insomnia slips in.):

Motion City Soundtrack - Everything Is Alright.

2006-04-10T00:39:00.000-07:00

Just came back from Supper.
O wells.
( HAHA )

Went St Vincent De Paul church fer confession earlier.I do have loads of sins.( Sharon know, i know ) I didnt confess that particular one though.Laughs.

After work,lunched at this coffee shop opp bugis with Sharon darling.They serve pretty nice "meat"balls noodles.Spicy makes it delicious.-slurps) You should go try it.But that guy who served us is prolly the most exasperating man i've ever seen!Grr.Fuckin' attutide.Anyways i seriously fuckin' dislike those "chee ko pekss".They always have this disgusting and desperate face la.EW.

I got myself a new lil handbag tgt with Sharon.Grins grins.& on sat was out with Maine darling when i got myself a new bag as well.Sheesh.But after all,it was worth the money 'cause i like the bag.TEEHEE.O wells.Heard of this phrase, "It never hurts t pamper yourself a lil".(:

Okay but seriously ma shoppin' spree's gonna deteriorate,and soon i'l needa join the Ocean's 11 team and crash Las Vegas Casino la.

P/s.Rachel darling!Remember that New Urban Male's bag i pointed t yeh last week i think,at Heeren.I WANT IT LA!!Teehee.( You can take it as a hint )Winks.Update me with you and him soon okay babe.(:

Pp/s.Bitch,yeh know the meaning of "once bitten twice shy".Seek fer the meaning.Utter disappointment!I hate u,yeh know?

Im tryin' t get over you.

Pink - U And Ur Hand.

2006-04-09T14:58:00.000-07:00

Why am i missin' yeh
when im not even s'posed t be thinkin' of yeh.

Why do i feel so happy upon seein' your msg
but yet afraid of replyin' yeh.

Someone wanna tell me why?

I feel so lousy.

'Cause i told myself t get over you
but i cant.

'Cause there's so many things that i'd like t say t you
but i dont know how.

&
'Cause there shouldnt even be a you t start with.

2006-04-06T23:12:00.000-07:00

Met up with the two darlings,Maybelle and Angeline.(:

Head t Raffles place first.'Cause Angel working there so we waited fer her before dinin' at TCC.Maybelle and myself,we were chafing waitin' fer that darling t knock off la.Anyways dinner was a fillin' one.The food was pretty delicious and likewise the milk shake and im feelin' so fat now.Anyhow i bought a LIL PRINCESS pillow case tgt with Maybelle.It's fuckin' cute i tell ya..

Head t Bugis next.Bought a white skirt.Shrugs.&looked around fer nice stuffs but nothin' caught ma eyes..

Disgressing,while on our way back at Dohby Ghaut,Angel saw a BUNG whom she claim was cute.So 'course upon hearin' the word CUTE BUNG,we were def intrigued so we gave chase...It was utter folly t do that okay.LAUGHS.In the end it sent us into a laughin' fit.'Cause she was carrying a FAIRPRICE' plastic bag!Laughs.Anyways i reckon she heard us 'cause when she drop off,she walked away with that smirk on her face.HAHAH.

I was glad i met up with them.Loads of catchin' up and laughin' session.I def had fun.(:

Screw ma mum la.Im sick of livin' with so many restriction and rules that i have t adhere t.): Gimme some space la 'cause i really needa breathe too.Fuck.

P/s.VAUNT @MOS on the 30th of May.
HOPEFULLY i can make it on that night.
Shrugs.
Shall ask gfss along too anyhow.
'Cause it's gonna be JOYCE birthday.
Grins grins.

Nights love.
I've got work tmr.):

D'you know that i hate missin' you.
D'you know that i hate thinkin' of you.
Just stop poppin' out of ma mind,will ya?
Grrr.):

Muse - Can't Take My Eyes Off You.

2006-04-04T01:32:00.000-07:00

Edited

I'd MARRY whoever who GETS ME THE WHOLE SEASON OF THE L WORD.
-

Im feelin' rather blithe now.

Teehee.

O'rite i just came out of my shower.Went supper with Sharon after work.Omgosh.I really have t watch my diet.It's gonna get worst if i were t continue eating supper.This is def ma last supper.Heh heh)Okay so apparently my eyes are closing and i really hope i could retire myself t bed and have my beauty sleep at this very moment.But i'll still wait fer ma hair t dry...):

Today at work,i was asked t teach the new guy "Dairus".T ma surprise he was a pretty fast learner.I mean compared t me he was considered good.&he even praised me that i was a GOOD teacher.Okay go on and laugh!Sniggers)But i didnt like him.He cant keep his hand t himself la.

Y'know i usually dont get SMILES from fster.But after i change my picture t ma current primary photo,im getting a load from GUYS.&just why it had t be guys.If you get ma drift...Shrugs.

Anyways gfss going t KL.&Maine and i couldnt go cos' of our mum.Grr.):

O'rite on a lighter note,im over' the moon cos' the acer guy came over this morning and got ma comp repaired.GRINS GRINS.But i reckon he'd be back soon.An advice from me is NEVER t buy acer..

&im finally seeing Maybelle and Angeline this thurs.(:

P/s.My mum and dad is naggin' as usual.&no doubt i bet my dad's having his "menopause" too.Anyhow,my mum has turned into a callous woman i tell you..):

Pp/s.I need a tann.Date me people.GRINS GRINS.It's been a while since i got the burning like a red lobster feelin'...

All smiles when i read your msg.
I hope i could receive more of it.

Oasis - Wonderwall.

2006-03-28T22:26:00.000-08:00

Edited

I've got a sudden craving fer chocolate fondue !
&chocolate eclair....
( Someone please search fer the word FAT in the dictionary fer me )

**
Fridae's Feelin' Good party, scheduled for Sunday 26 March, has been called off after the venue, Ministry of Sound received a telephone call from local police demanding that the party be cancelled.

Read more.

This is sucha motherfuckin' bullshit.
Sheesh)
I've got nothin' more t add on...
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Hello world.Im back with a diff layout.Give me some feedback by either tagging me or above haloscan ok.Grins.

Anyways pardon that really lugubrious previous two post.&i reckon you guys must have found my blog a really monotonous one.O wells,i cant deny im a emo bitch.Sheesh.Fretting so much 'bout it also wont help..&yes i have yet t find the meaning of life though.Groan)

Anyhow,im feeling much better now.Working has made my life much happier,i can say..Congress people's are a bunch of peeps with a great sense of humour.But def not those cashiers bitches !

Ok no im feeling rather queer now.
Geeez.

P/s.I wanna shop shop shop!):
( That's if GOD can make me a lil more richer.. )
Nah he didnt answer me.
Im seriously a broke bitch.
Perhaps someone would give me the chance t spend her money...
Please laugh. ( HA HA )

Working will def keep you out of my mind.
But i still hate t admit that.....
I really do miss you.
):

; Shakira - Hips Don't Lie.

2006-03-25T16:21:00.000-08:00

D'you know the meaning of the word life?
Can anyone show me the meaning of life?
I cant find it anywhere in the dictionary...

Im very tired.
So tired alr.

&i cant seem t pick myself up.
):

2006-03-23T21:20:00.000-08:00

I've been wearing a mask all these while.
How long more do i've t put on that fucking mask..
All these while i havent been myself.
I feel like a fucking bitch.
Im feeling really forlorn of what i've become.
Can anyone tell me where t find back my real self?
Shrugs.

No one truly understands..
So i never really told anyone of my probs.

People asked why i look so down,
i simply told 'em that im just tired after work.
O wells,
what more can i tell them.....
It's just simply inexplicable.

I know many tries t be there fer me,
( you know who you are ! )
but i just didnt give 'em the chance.
Cos' i chose t be a anti-social.
I chose t isolate myself.
Im sorry fer being a cynic,
but what can you do even if i were t tell you.

Many would have said im a absolute bitch !
O wells,
go ahead..
I'l concede that i am then !

Im really really tired.
Im brittle inside and outside.
I do break down very easily.
As fer now,
im on the verge of a mental breakdown.
)"

O'rite im off t reflect !

P/s.T those who knows me very well,
you know i'l be fine after a while.

2006-03-21T13:00:00.000-08:00

Your blog tells me that you're happy.

What more can i ask fer,
when thats what i want.

2006-03-20T12:49:00.000-08:00

I miss you.

I fucking swear alcohol makes my whole body itch.
Or is it just my sensitive skin..Sheesh.
Ok im still feeling itchy all over now !

How irony,
after drinking all became so red and high.
All except fer me.

O wells,
tmr is the appeal day fer Sharon and myself..):
People pray fer us !

-
Leave me alone fer now.
Thoughts of isolating myself...
Put a query against that.
How fucking naive i am.

Just let me be.
&i'l be fine soon.

2006-03-16T18:47:00.000-08:00

A dream can bring true the wish never thought.

So how should i start...Anyways i realised that i dont have that much stuffs t type in here anymore.Just random posts or updates of the day.So before you proceed,my post could be really boring and random.So if you continue reading and find that your starting t yawn,TOO BAD.Click the X at the top right hand corner and LEAVE now then.I dont need comments from you.HURR>:

Ok im in low spirits right now.WHAT's wrong with me(?)Im in this kinda shit state these few days.I've been throwing tantrums every now and then.Moodswings are really terrible.Seesawing from one emotion t another.One min,i can be the really high and hyper Desi.But another min i can be a real fucking bitch.Sheesh.Someone please gimme a slap t wake me up,appreciated.

I seriously loathe working in the morning shift.Gee..Dont even feel like mentioning it.It was completely my fault.Im a complete nitwit la!Fuck.Im so feeling melancholic.I could appear nonchalant infront of you,but in fact inside i was 'bout t explore with frustration.Urgh.Anyways facing those dickhead customers today was simply annoying.But i reckon im getting used t it,i mean that's a sooner or later thing.

So anyhow im feeling disgruntled.Cos' my hopes of buying that Puma bag and Motorola V3/V3i is so going down the drain.Sigh.But i'll continue WORKING hard and hopefully get more pay.Pouts.Oh &im taking over Sharon's shift tmr.Grins.

The thought of yesterday just makes me wanna laugh.This philippino guy was trying t communicate with me in Chinese.He said t me "Xiao jie ni hen mei,wo ke yi xi huan ni ma?" I was like huh did i heard UGLY?!Laughs.&on top of that,there's this guy hiding his head when his friend said he wanted t know me.Wasnt interested at all.Oh have i ever mention t ya that i dont really fancy shy guys....Sniggers.

Shawn's going zouk later.He asked if i wanna tag along.Nah i've stuffs t do.&moreover if i were t be free,i would have gone t herss at DXO instead.):

Can you believe Maine has the same dream as me.OF becoming a kindergarden teacher.TEHEHEHEH.Yes though im not really a person who has that much of patient.But i really do adore kids.&after a umpteen times at my aunt's taking care of 'em,i think i can make it thru.Grins.

21march is coming near.Shrugs.
Im feeling apprehensive about the results even w.out appealing yet.Sheesh.

Ok on a lighter note,
im going sentosa with gfss this coming tue.
It's everyone's off day.
:D

P/s.Im craving fer garlic bread nowww.
How irony.
I fucking hate garlicss.
But of cos' seasoning is added into garlic bread.
So thats the reason why it's so nice.
Oh crap who doesnt know that...

O wells,
i've t run now.
I got loads of stuffs t do.
Gdbye, loves.

; Trademark - Only Love.

But a dream will always remain as a dream.
I can never hold you like how i did in my dream.
I can never feel you like how i did in my dream.
I can never see you like how i did in my dream.
&im starting t hate dreams of you in it.): ):

2006-03-15T00:10:00.000-08:00

What if one day i go crazy.
Would anyone still love me?
.POUTTS.
Cos' im really going crazy,soon.

Anyways im working tmr.
Pray i wont have t face those dickhead customers la.

My comp is totally screwed.
Have t restore that BITCH.
so in other words,
all i-tune songs going t be gone.
All saved items going t be gone.
&blah blah blah...
Fuck.
Using my mum's comp.
&it's fucking laggg.

On a lighter note,
im going DXO this coming fri with ma gfs la.
im gonna drink till i drop.....
Oh yes remind me t bring LEMON lemon!
:D

Shawn and mum altercating right now.
He pierced his ear and dyed his hair.
HELLO know how much noise pollution he brought in.
First was labret,now ear.
-bangs my head))
Those who know my mum VERY WELL.......

Ok this is so random.
Im turning in now.
Nights.

; Neyo - So sick.

You took my heart away,
&now im gonna take it back.

RETURN IT T ME WILL YA?
Shrugs.

2006-03-13T14:44:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps,i've created a haloscan cos' that tagboard's sucha arse.It's always a hassle.So if somehow anytime the tagboard is cocked up,you could go below every post and tag.
:D

Keep the tag going yeah? Cheers.

Anyways,im still so disappointed so disgusted with myself.Im still waiting patiently fer 21march.The insanity driving inside me.Seriously feel like screwing 'em.People please pray pray that my appeal works.It has t be successful,GOD.Shrugs.

Changed of blog song ; Marilyn Manson - Tainted Love.
Please kindly wait while it loads...

**
Itfeelsgreatthearyourvoice.

Im trying t force out a smile.
):

&im feeling reluctant but what can i do.
.snortt.
-

&im glad there's HappyTreeFriends la. :D
laughs.

Won't you come on and go with me,
Come on ova to my place.
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat,
And let me ease ya mind girl.
We gon do it our way.

I like it,I like it,I really,really like it,I want it, adore it,so come let me enjoy it.

That's taken from Nelly's My Place.Don' yall just adore that song.
(:

2006-03-12T16:17:00.000-08:00

Changed of layout.Im not in any mood.Sigh.):

Anyways cant wait t see Maybelle and Angel ~~later~~.
(:

Fuck fer being so emo.
Why am i so naive.
My eyes filled with tears.
Can anyone tell me why why why...
Shrugs.

Sorry t have caused the argument.):
I seriously hate t lose a friend like you.):

But if anytime you ever need someone,
i would always be here.

Whycantsheevenreplyafriend'smsg....):

11March

2006-03-11T22:55:00.000-08:00

Edited

I cant get t sleep.Im tossing and turning practically the whole time.What's wrong with me...Sigh.Anyways caught The Pianist on ch5.Those Germans are real heinous dogs man...Yawns.Im sleepy.Grr.):
-

I keep closing my eyes,
but i cant block you out.

The fetish fer Motorola V3/V3i is still so on.Im trying t save up t grab hold of that bitch...Shrugs.

So anyways towned with Sharon today.Bought a top tgt,which i just tried it agn and thought it was rather long....): &&&im disgruntled that i couldnt buy THAT HANDBAG.Short of cash agn.Sheesh.Head t Heeren t meet Rach after that and chilled at Coffee Bean.

Yesterday and thurs was really too hectic at Congress... We slogged our guts out till 10. Cos' of the IT show, the human traffic was totally horrendous. &how heinous the customers can get, i got scolded by a old bitch. WTF. I seriously find that 99% of the customers attitude towards us is distinctly hostile. Fuck u. Dont ya step on my tail. HURR. &uhhh i almost puked when this person said i got a sweet smile. Tsk. Ok go on and laugh fer all you wish!! So prata agn fer supper with Sharon. &somehow we got really high after that. Laughs.

Clique planning t go DXO this coming fri.Oh well,&i feel utterly upset that i couldnt go t hers.Grr.):):

Senses Fail - Tie Her Down.

I feel we're drifting ~~away~~ apart....
Are we?
&i do miss you...
But do you even know that.
Sigh.):):):

2006-03-09T10:55:00.000-08:00

Im in a whirl now.
Im feeling fucking useless.
Im feeling all the frustration inside me.

Feels like the whole world come crashing on me.

I didnt get into higher nitec.):):):

Appeal only on 21march.....
Im finished.):):):):):):

2006-03-05T14:17:00.000-08:00

Edited

~~Tears dwell up my eyes when i read the msg.~~
~~Dont know what's gotten into me.~~
~~Im feeling really terrible inside. ):~~

But im feeling alright now.
&im glad we're friends.
I know where im standing.
I'll never ever cross that line.):
Cos' i cant. (Accept the fact and move on, Desi.)

Moulin Rouge's playing on tv.
&it's making me really emo la.
-

I want a new skin,but nothing nice was found.):

So here's the update fer yesterday's trip t sentosa.But apparently yesterday was the first day of my period,so how much of fun can i get.Sheesh.The sun was good.But i wasnt even tanned.Im not a tiny bit satisfied.Sharon was burnt.But how irony,im still the fringing WHITE chicken.):):): I couldnt stop whining t 'em non stop 'bout not getting tanned. =c Anyways i did enjoyed the time camwhoring..Took loads of photos,shall upload it when i got those pics from Sharon.Oh yes and anyways we bumped into Grace.(:

The chairlift was next.It was great great so nice.Screaming our lungs out when we were up there.The scenery's spectacular(!)You could have sat that fer 3bucks only when cablecar is (how much?!).Though cablecar has aircon,SO WHAT!I enjoyed the natural breezeee...

Lunched before heading t Sharon's house.She was so beat that she retired herself t bed while Maine and myself invaded her comp.So was prata fer dinner next at yio chu kang.They gorged themselves on their favourite mutton soup.(-shakes head)

&anyways,i read the papers in the morning.Im simmer with rage.Whoever laid his hands on lil Nonoi,fuck you la you fucking bastard.May you die with some (insert whatever you can think here)!You ought t be hanged!She's such a adorable kid.How can anyone bear t kill her.Sigh.

On a lighter note,
i found my Spongie who went missing last week. :DD TEEHEHEH.

*4days t posting results.
Only God knows whether i can go into higher nitec.):):):

Bitch,you're being too vainglorious.(-farts on your face).&stop all the altercation.Had enough of your shit.&DONT BE SUCH A CYNIC!(-farts again).Do spare a thought of others at times.You're not the only who's part of it ok,bitch.

; Alter Bridge - Open Your Eyes.

Strange as it seems,
she's the one im after.

.donttireyourselfoverworkplease,takecareman.

2006-03-03T09:20:00.000-08:00

Edited

I can feel so surreal at times. .snortt.

Im thinking of uuu.
&im missing uuu.):

Here am I ~
waiting fer the night when i dream of you again.

But there's truth i have t face..
The truth that i can never be with you.
The truth that your heart's with someone else.):

You're nothing but a dream.
Leaving me with nothing t hold onto.

I would sleep forever.
Just t dream of you again.

Im weird.I can dream of virtually everything/anyone.& all would turned out nightmares.Grr.But there's only one person i would yearn t see in my dreams.If only i could see you in my dreams again tonight.Sigh.PLEASE LET ME HAVE SWEET DREAMS INSTEAD OF NIGHTMARES la.BLAH.
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Morning people.I looked into the full length mirror everyday never fail.& i realised i've put on so much weight and that im so darn FATtttt. ):):): Can anyone tell me how t go 'bout a HEALTHY diet(?!)

I cant wait fer tmr's date with MISTER SUN and gf's @Sentosa.GRINS.

Added Tatu - All The Things She Said video.

All the things she saidAll the things she saidRunning through my headAll the things she saidAll the things she saidRunning through my headThis is not enough.
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lostIf I'm asking for help it's only becauseBeing with you has opened my eyesCould I ever believe such a perfect surprise' I keep asking myself, wondering howI keep closing my eyes but I can't block you outWanna fly to a place where it's just you and meNobody else so we can be free.
All the things she saidAll the things she saidRunning through my headAll the things she saidAll the things she saidRunning through my headThis is not enoughThis is not enoughAll the things she saidAll the things she said.
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushedThey say it's my fault but I want her so muchWanna fly her away where the sun and rainCome in over my face, wash away all the shameWhen they stop and stare - don't worry me'cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for meI can try to pretend, I can try to forgetBut it's driving me mad, going out of my head.
Mother looking at meTell me what do you see' Yes, I've lost my mindDaddy looking at meWill I ever be free' Have I crossed the line'

2006-03-02T15:40:00.000-08:00

A Dream Worth Dreaming...

I could vividly remember what was in the dream.
Yes it was merely a dream,but that was the only time i could feel your presence near me.

Somewhere in my dreams i hear your voice.
Sensing your breathing...Feeling you appear there.
On the edge of my dreams i see your face.
In the shadows of my dreams i taste your lips.
On the edge of my dreams is where i want t stay.

imu ):

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Edited

Im trying t get used t work.
It's not my forte i tell ya..
& i really have t exercise forbearance in dealing with SOME people la.
If still cant get used t it,i'll prolly get a new job then.
Shrugs.

Cafe or Restaurant,any intro?RING ME UP OK. (:
P/s.Must be either 5.50/hr or higher.
(PSST,higher the better la.TEHEHEHE)

Pp/s.But most prolly i'll stay cos' of my gfs.GRINS.

I'll see..

; Saosin - I've Been Dying To Reach You.

2006-02-26T08:47:00.001-08:00

I'll hold you fer a lifetime,
if you'll just hold my hand.

Check out my clique's blog.Dont expect so much..Afterall Desi sucks in html.Grr.Make sure you tag and give some comments yeah?Click here t go t our blog. (:

Oh yes i'll be starting work tmr.Kinda excited but gfs not working.Sigh.& results on March9.Gosh feeling really tense.): & i cant wait fer this sat's tanning session with gfs.Hopefully Rach would be off as well.I cant think of any more stuffs t type...Laters!

P/s. Im craving fer icecreams. ):

T my dear Maybelle:
Fretting about it wont help.Dont brood so much ok dear?You dont wanna have lesser hair huh.Anyway,HAVE ANYONE EVER TOLD YOU,YOU LOOKED REALLY PRETTY WHEN YOU SMILE.It's true dear.& it hurts t see my dearest mei so sad and all.& i couldnt do anything..Please be happy always ok.MUST ALWAYS BE STRONG AND KNOW THAT DESIREE'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FER YOU.Hugs.(:

T my Jose AIREN:
I read your blog.Please put behind the past and move on yeah?MANY GUYS OUT THERE QUEUING UP FER YOU BABE.So forget him..I dont wanna see you having sleepless nights cos' of him again ok.AIREN WILL BE HERE IF YOU EVER NEED SOMEONE.Hugs tightly.(:

T my baby Zeteng:
You're always there fer me when i needed someone.& you never fail t put a smile on my face whenever i am down.Now it's my turn..I dont wish t see you so hurt and sad.Not worth it t be sad fer someone who's the PAST already.It's time t move on dear.Look forward..THERE'S A PRETTY LADY WAITING FER YOU(you never know perhaps your one has arrived).Just remember I AM JUST A CALL AWAY,whenever you need someone ok.(:

T my lebon silly:
Can you dont always put the "die" word ~~infront of~~ before your mouth..I WANNA SEE THE REAL LEBON BACK T HER LIFE OK.I CAN SENSE IT COMING.Grins.

; My Chemical Romance - It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish.

**
Do you know how precisely it feels t be missing you?
No you wont know.
Cos' i myself cant comprehend this kinda feelings.

The word "give up" engulfed my mind everytime.
Sigh.

20Feb.

2006-02-20T21:35:00.000-08:00

Edited

OMG.Dean's so deserve t be back!!!! :D
& Adriano.. Yay you're so back too!!
-

Thinkin of you is all i can do,
thinkin of you beyond this blue......

Went fer a job interview this morn.& yeah i got in!!!But arent sure when startin work,still have t wait fer manager t fit in my time.I would like t thank Sharon and Maine darlings fer pullin me in.Grinss.I BUMPED INTO MY EYECANDY RYAN at CityLink.OMG.Faint.& & bumped into Stella too.I am really sorry la.I mistook her as a guy.HAHA.

Met up with pts at Tamp after that.Caught The Fog.A pretty nice show i should recommend you...CAUSE Tom Welling's hell HOT HOT HOT you know.Grinss.Before the show,saw this bewitchin girl whom pts and i kinda got bewitched by her beauty.For one bizarre moment,we thought she was a PL.Cos' she kinda gave us a feelin that she's a pl.LAUGHS.But guess we were so wrong.She got this very nerdy bf please.GOSH.Pretty and Nerdy=Definitely TRUE LOVE la!.& so prata fer dinner,yet again!

My hp batt was totally dead practically half of the day.& i thought i could see someone's text when i switch on my hp..But WELL,why would she msg me fer whatever reason.SHEESH.

So finally AI REN's back fer choir on Sunday.Missed her so much.Anyhow,i really enjoyed the laughin session with ya.Well you should know what.GOSH.We're fuckin MEAN la.LAUGHS.So t that person,PLEASE PLEASE CHANGE YOUR EVERYTHING LA.STOP ACTIN LIKE YOUR SO RICH AND STUFFS.AGREE WITH AI REN,IT DOESNT SUIT YOU AT ALL PLEASEE..

So i would like t end this by sayin FUCK you irksome fuckin bus drivers.T hell t your hideous face.HUR.Period.

& t BUMBLEBEES darlings,
"GFS,I WANT SOME TANNIN SESSION SOON!"
:DDD

LEBON SILLY,IF YOUR READIN...I'd be here if you need me.& please please DONT EVER try t do anythin silly.& i mean sniffin too.Isnt worth it at all.FER HER?!Okay who am i t say all these..But does she even care if you cry a river fer her.Guess she wouldnt even care.WILL YA PROMISE ME YOU WOULD STAY ALWAYS SO HAPPY GOIN AND SMILE SMILE OH SMILE. :DD

; Tatu - Imperfect Girl.

As long as you're happy,
i'll be.

So guess you will be,
cos' your back together with her.

It hurts a lil though.
Rahhhhhhh.

2006-02-18T00:50:00.000-08:00

I am not yours, not lost in you.
Not lost, although i long t be.
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
& lost as a snowflake in the sea...

Caught the girls' soccer match at BishanITE.National Team lost t our school team..HOHO.I should go more often t girls' soccer match la.So many cute malay bungs..OMFG i sound so fuckin desperate.Damn it.Tonight Liverpool MUST win Man Utd la.Urgh..

Head t Gp house after that..She cooked pasta and of course it was my duty t do the eatin.Grinss.Was feeling a lil cranky after drinking.Just felt completely eccentric and absurb.WTF.Shant elaborate more...

Apparently her pasta wasnt enough t appease my growling tummy.SO bought Guai Guai(Don's dog) t YCK t have prata fer our early supper!!Fuck.Was fuckin pissed with some people when we got there...Ahhh.Forget it.& i totally lost my appetite upon seeing a fuckin BIG rat.YIKES. :/

Dearest,you got everything wrong.& you just wouldnt allow me to elucidate la.TEXT ME!!& words cant convey how delighted i felt,when i saw that thing(!) HAHA.THANK YOU BABE. :DD

; FallOut Boy - XO.

): uoyssimi
.getwellsoonplease.

17Dec.

2006-02-17T11:30:00.000-08:00

How can i ache and crave fer someone's touch,
when i have never felt it before?

So apparently,Duncan appeared in my dream last night,yet again.& that fucking bitch was starring in my dreams too.Grrr.

Yesterday accompanied my pts t her interview at Kallang Kudding Rd.Fer whatever reason the Flesh Imp office is over there.Damn fucking place's so ulu.Apparently my dear was filling with apprehension fer the interview,so she called me and asked me t accompany her...

After the interview,head t Suntec.Went t Congress Kopitiam t look fer Sharon and Maine.Shant mention about some old bitch...I was exasperated with her attitude la.No way i had t abide with this kinda person.HUR.But hopefully,the clique could get the chance t work together!! :D

Another random entry..

The yearning grows more each day.

But i know i have t wait..
Until the time is right.
It seems so far away,
that i think i am losing my mind.

But i think i'll have t face the truth,
i'll never be with you.

Do you even know it's you...

; Avenged Sevenfold - Warmness On The Soul.

Valentine's.

2006-02-14T20:15:00.000-08:00

Edited

Dad: Saw this butch with this big fake flowers downstairs.
Me: So NOT LOMANTIC t give fake flowers t her gf.
Dad: (turn towards my flowers) Dont tell me she gave it t you?!
Me: HAHA. How can it be...
Laughs.

:/
I got the same exactly flowers (look at below pic's flowers).
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Happy Valentine's Day t all..

Thanks Sharon,Rach and Maine fer the flowers.(:

Today's love is ma clique.Grins.Caught Dick and Jane.We were late fer the our show...Because apparently we were kinda caught up takin prints at Heeren and we literally forgot about our show.So we quickly flew and made our way there.& i looked completely crazy with ma messed up hair.Growls.Okay all i can say was that show was thumbs up.It was fucking hilarious i tell you..I bumped into Chris after the show.Grins.I kinda told her that i didnt like her hair. :X

While on my way back on the train,this guy kinda caught my attention.Initially i didnt even took a glance of him,but when he turned and looked towards my side,i saw his eyes..His eyes was really really fucking i dont know how t put it.Laughs.Uh i dont why i was fucking attracted t him la(?!)& he wasnt really that good lookin though.....Uh he didnt even took a second glance of me la.Rah.How puerile i am now!Laughs.Just why am i fucking talkin about guys.Okay NEXT please..

My fucking panda eyes really spoilt my day.Didnt have ample sleep recent nights.I dont know why i've been having insomnia..Sigh.Dreams kept me up the whole night as well.Rah.

Yesterday had steamboat fer dinner with clique at Marina Bay.I had hell loads of fun with them.Sharon was constantly takin candid shot of us.It turned out really really awful and sick please..Bowling was next.& i wont conceal the fact that i was really lousy on that day.Sheesh.Laughs.But what's important is that i had fun with my gfs.Grins.

While on my way back with Sharon at Dohby Ghaut mrt,we saw XIANG TING!!Grins.& also saw my ex-crush there with her uniform still.Saw her twice that month.Another time was at Heeren toilet..I cant really call her my crush though.She's my ex-classmate and ex-schoolmate la.Laughs.

Look behind!! Laughs. (on the train back..)

@Marina Bay.

(Ripped all these pics from sharon's blog.)

Why didnt i bump into people i wanna see.OH CRAP shut up DESI.She was with her ~~ex-gf~~ la.Sheesh..What do i expect.

; Nickleback - FarAway.

Seein you so upset and pain,
a terrible feeling took over me,
& i cant help but felt sad too.
I was about t explore with frustration.
Because i couldnt think of any ways t make you feel better.
Fuck.

~~Why do i feel so down w.out your msg?~~
~~Why do i feel so down when you didnt reply me?~~
~~Sigh.~~

~~I shouldnt even call you a crush.~~
~~We havent even met in person...~~

~~Snap out of it please Desi.~~
~~Period.~~

You enjoyed your day with ~~her~~ someone, i reckon.
(:

I cant comprehend the feelings inside me now..
I dont know what's wrong with me..

Just what's wrong with me..
WHYWHYWHYWHY am i behaving this way?! ..

I know i'm isnt your type at all..
Shrugs.

2006-02-09T15:04:00.000-08:00

Changed of layout..& added ~~Lee Hom's~~ Beyonce's video.

Yesterday was @ Icecube with gfs.Was my first time there.& i'm lovin' that place.It has the ambience of a pub.But with jazz music..I ate ice-cream cum liquor.& i wanted t drink,but meeting mum so cant.Okay i was sick but i still ate prata fer dinner.Sheesh.

@ Icecube.

I cant sleep these few nights.Have been suffering from insomnia.Fuck.& last night my cramp was fucking painful...

I'll be alone again this Valentine's. ):

; Jay Chou - Feng.

My wishful thinking..

2006-02-07T22:09:00.000-08:00

Edited

Added the video of Selena - Dreaming Of You here.
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Can anyone tell me how t change my blogger back t english?It's kinda irritatin t open blogger with those cheena words la.Hur.

Okay i am seriously sick.My thoat's inflamed and i am having a rather hoarse voice now.Geee.My nose's literally blocked and i've been sneezing non stop ever since noon time.Rah.& my head feels rather heavy now.Sheesh.I reckon i got those sneezings and all from the dusty room.Was helping clearing all those dusty soccer past documents at Jalan Besar Stadium earlier..I swear i cant stand one of the cheerleaders from Young Lions.Shant elaborate more..

I was on my way home when i saw this same auntie again with the thousand piercings on her ear.But this time she got this labret piercing as well.I really take my hat off t her la.Golden colour ear-rings somemore..Laughs.

Dean and YinWei doesnt deserve t be out.I think those fans are SO BLIND.But Dean still deserve t get my sms votes la.Ahh.I dont care whoever emerged the winner la.But fer now i'll support Teresa.

Well i gotta run now..Gdnight.

; Funeral For A Friend - Red Is The New Black.

Dare i admit?

Feb6

2006-02-06T22:56:00.000-08:00

I can see clearly now the rain is gone,
i can see all obstacles in my way,
gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It's gonna be a bright bright sunshiny day.

Why should i get so depressed and even cry over him.
Come t think of it,
i am really stupid.
I still wince at the time when i cried fer him.
It's isnt worth it at all please.
He NEVER loved me.

T all my dear ones,

I AM GOING T BE SO STRONG STRONG. :D
So no depressing ME showing up again.
Thank you t those who were there fer me. (:

Yours,
Desiree.

OMFG..I think i am falling in loveee with a ice-cream seller's daughter.Laughs.Her saccharine smile totally swept me away.She's really fucking cute la.No no i am definitely not a phoedophile ah.& if you think i am a lil exaggerated..Go t Jalan Besar mrt station then.Grins.Digressing,how expensive t travel by bus or train la.ADULT FARE please.GRRR.Okay back t the ice-cream seller's daughter.She will grow up t be a pretty bung i tell you...Laughs.

Oh oh & on my way back,i saw this auntie with this thousand piercings on her ear la.Laughs.

Okay just a random entry.I am fucking tired.Am going t retire myself t bed now.Tmr still got t wake up at a fucking early timing.Rah.

Justatextfromyoucompletesmyday.

; From First To Last - Such A Tragedy.

2006-02-01T18:28:00.000-08:00

I am done with you.
I am done with being used.

I tried t be strong,
but i still shed those tears.

You said you love me,
but you never did.

Initially i thought you would be the one,
but i was so wrong.
I was a fool all this while.

It hurts,
it messed with my heart.

You made me all confused.
I'm engulfed with weirdness.
I cant decipher why you think keeping your mouth shut would solve everything.
Fuck it why did you take me as...

I am leaving.
Goodbye.

.some words are best left unsaid.

~~iloveyou~~

2006-01-27T12:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday 26JAN ;
Helped up at the match Singapore vs Denmark at Kallang Stadium.Those denmark kids,fucking cute please.& those denmark players,hot please.laughs.Dear came down t look fer me.He ran so many places just because i wanted t see him.Sorry baby..

Digressing,i didnt managed t catch a glimpse of the match though.Was helping at the media side.I was literally bored t death.Then this guy kept talking t me.Still asked fer my number.He's an EXCRUCIATING bore la.Yarking away....Although i cant abide him.Didnt wanna be so bad t tell him "Can you get out of my sight please!"laughs.Was busy entertaining malay guys too.This group of malays walked pass my booth and kept smiling t me.So i had t smile back.laughs.

After the match,went fer supper with Sharon.Prata at YioChuKang.When we finish eating,we took the very last bus of the night.I thought there isnt any bus anymore...

Bitch..
When are you going t learn t grow up!Your puerile behaviour really makes me feel like giving you a tight slap.WAKE UP please.Period.

; Motion City Soundtrack - When You're Around.

2006-01-20T12:05:00.000-08:00

Edited

I had a splurge and bought two tops,one skirt,a bag and a necklace at Bugis with my cousin and mum.Seriously i am fucking broke.But all those doesnt cost that much anyhow.If not i wouldnt be able t afford t dress bootifully fer CheenaNewYear.Chuckles.

Mum's company not in a good shape.& i presume it's like closing down soon.Sigh.So henceforth,i seriously have t be solicitous and spare a thought fer my parents as well.Spend lesser on my shopping spree!I MEANT WHAT I SAY OKAY!Hur.Really feel heart broken t see them have t work so hard fer the family.Sigh.

Bump into Chin Yong at Bugis Street.That guy thought i didnt noticed him.& tried t walk away w.out calling me.But i still managed t lay my hands on him and hit him hardly fer not calling me.HUR.laughs.

Nights.(:
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"MUM,i had enough of your harangue",i said t her.
A slap from her in return.THANK YOU SO MUCH.
How preposterous it is!Sheesh.

I swear i am fucking bored.& it kills t be stuck at home with your mum nagging and blah blah-ing around you.Snort.& i am not looking forward t CheenaNewYear.I know i wont be collecting as much red packets as last year.Where has the gay mood gone t..GROAN.

I swear i need a tannn badly!Rah.
& IF only i could get a face lift from Debbieee!!Ahhh.

Jalan jalan with Gracie SOON.Yay :D

LO LO LO LO - VE. LO LO LO....laughs.
BEEP (Pussy Cat Dolls) is nice too.(:

; Beyonce - Check On It.

**
Strangely,
images of you have been constantly appearing in my mind.

Someone who used t care so much...
But now evrythings changed.
Evrythings different now.

Getting lesser of texts.
Replies came only in one word.
Makes me really awful.

A wave of regret swept over me.
I asked myself why didnt i pay more attention t you the other time.

How much am i craving fer your attention.
How much i pine fer your love.
How much i yearn t stay close by your side...

I hate t admit,
but i really do miss you.
& missed talking t you on the phone.):

16Nov.

2006-01-16T17:35:00.000-08:00

The way my mum treated me this morning really cause me t become melancholic and really pathetic.She cant evn respect my decision fer ONCE.I just told her i am going suntec fer this particular job interview.& she doesnt like the idea of working so she started screaming.& spitting hurtful words right t my face.I said it can evn lighten her burden.But she snap me by asking me not t bullshite her.Am i wrong t be solicitous.Just what's her fucking problem?It's just working(?!)I dont evn stand t lose anything.I am thoroughly exasperated with my mum's attitude.Fuck i dont feel like typing any further.

Period.

I have a strong dislike towards some of my aunties.Seriously abhor their behaviour.It's really exasperating i've t face all of them.Urgh.I cant stand it whenevr they start t gossip.They would always give negative comments t my mum.That night one of them told my mum i dress like ah lian.WTH.Open your eyes widely please.Then my mum would start nagging at me,asking me t stop dressing like this and blah blah...Snort.Some irksome freaks they are!

Sheesh.

I caught the first round of Campus Superstar.I think both Dean and Teresa sang pretty well on that night.Esp the way Dean sings..She is really a passionate singer.& Xue,i support her not because she's a butch please.She sang out all her emotions,really touched me a lil.She got this really captivating smile too.Dont y'all think so?laughs.Anyway with Dean good looks and good voice,i'm pretty sure she can stay long in this competition.

Okay i've no idea why i am writing all this and the reason fer this post.Just literally bored i guess.Yawn~

; Marion Raven - Break You.

11Jan.

2006-01-11T15:59:00.000-08:00

Changed of layout.& ~~deleted the song~~. (:
I AM FUCKING BORED PLEASEE.

I've a fetish fer Motorola Pink Razr V3.Therefore i am getting one fer myself,after i get my first pay from my first job.My mum says i can only work after Cheena New Year.But i cant wait till so long.So i am still going t get a job before CNY,& yes despite all my mum's naggings & whatsoevr.In conclusion,i am seriously used t all the shoutings i got from her all these years.Sheesh.

Hur.

This is so pretttyyyyyyyy pleasee. :D
Motorola Pink Razr V3.

I dropped my phone in this pile of water yesterday at Hg Mall.How great.If it hasnt rain....Sheesh.

Disgressing,i really abhor the rain!Evrytime i wanna run,it will start t rain.It's getting on my nerves pleasee.URGH.Let's talk about today.Initially i evn planned t jog later on.But the weather changed dramatically later.Snort.

Anyway i am starting t dig Juliana Theory songs.
& how great BSB is coming soon.Urgh.):

Okay, this is just a random entry anyhow.

But before i go..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALETHEA!
(:

; Avenged Sevenfold - Seize The Day.

6Jan.

2006-01-06T00:24:00.000-08:00

Edited

Caught the preview of the L word.
But couldnt d.l the whole show.
Some virus, i reckon. ):
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It was great catching up with my BUMBLEBEES. (:
First was some marketing at NTUC fer ingredients.
We were practically fooling around the place please.
laughs.
Head t Century Sqaure t rent some VCDs after that.

Off we went t Rachel's place soon after that.
& how great.
It poured and yes we were drenched like hell.
Rach & i ran across the road bare-footed.
It was plain stupid but really fun. laughs.
Not forgetting those stares from singaporean people.
Hur.

Reached her place and we started our preparation.
We cooked and oh yes of course it had t be pastasssss!
I merely did the cutting.
Well if you must know..
I admit that i am a total cooking nuts pleasee.

It turned out pretty yummy.
Everything turn out nice fer a hungry kid.
I have penchant for pastasss(!!)
So you should know where t bring me? :D

The shows we rented wasnt as great as i expected though.
It was pretty boring but well nice.
Bitching and lots of laughing at her room.
Sharon helped cut my nails and even painted it.
& it even came t a point when i realise i cant do menicure pleasee though i think it's really pretty.
I dont have the patience t put my hand there fer hours!
I couldnt even give Sharon a min t do it peacefully.
Poor darlin had t keep me still t do a proper job.
laughs.

That was pretty much a great day fer me. (:
Unfortunely, we didnt take a picture together t keep it as a memento.
It's not evrday we get t do this together pleasee.

I saw something which made me really disgusted.
I was so angry and i couldnt appear nonchalant when i saw everything happen right infront of me. Urgh.

Perhaps i shouldnt even call it love.
Perhaps i shouldnt even say i like you.
Perhaps all this while i was wrong about my feelings.

I didnt feel a inch of pain in my heart when i saw that picture.
Perhaps all this while,
it's just a passing infatuation.

; Craig David - Never Should Have Walked Away.

Jan4

2006-01-04T13:20:00.000-08:00

Edited

Got my new sim card.
I'm using back the same number.
So anyone who knows me can you text me & tell me who you are as well because as you know i've lost all contacts already, thank you sexayye. (:
~~But dont text me now, only tmr.~~
& i wont be buying a new phone as i am fucking broke now. ):
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Happy New Year!
again t all my dear ones. (:

I am here t pin down my new year's resolutions:

TIME T WORK ON MY SERIOUS DIET. Push all my way t get rid those extra kilos i've gained all this while.
Put more effort & concentrate on my studies if i were t promote t higher nitec. Dont wanna disappoint my parents.
NEVR t misplaced my phone again.
Not t neglect my friends.
Will stay firm & strong on the ground whatevr goes wrong again.
Less lazy. Time t clear my room & help up with the chores at home.
No more a procrastinator(hopefully!)
Less using of the comp(uhhh please laugh!)
& lastly i am going t work hard in my job(still searching) till May.

In the year 2006, i want:

Less altercation at home.
*youuu t stay happy & always t wear on that smile.
My three bees(rach,sharon&maine) & Jose Ai Ren t be happy wherevr they go & blissfully in love when they find their other half. (:
My other beloved friends, happy happy always too.
My family & myself t stay happy together.
My grandparents safe & happy always too.
Basically, i just want t see everyone happy!!
Mum's company t make a comeback. Hopefully it will stay strong from then.
& lastly more cash lo.

Everyone please also refer t below post as well.

The picture may explain everything.But i beg t differ.Someone tell me i am thinking the wrong way.Someone prove me wrong.But as i've said before,i am contented with my life as long as you're part of it.Be it we stay as friends or lovers.

2006-01-03T01:39:00.000-08:00

Edited

Apparently, Bestie told me she put my phone beside the sink & she even reminded me t take it.
My fault fer not being attentive.
I didnt even hear that.
I am very cross with myself.
URGH.
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Dont contact me fer the time being.
I've misplaced my phone @Cine's LADIES!!

URGH...

Anyway caught The Chronicles Of Narnia.
Out of the many shows i've caught,
that is definitely a great show.
Anyhow, one show i would recommend t you.
Trust me.
& i was lugubrious that i cried a lil.
Well you cant blame me fer being emo what.

I STILL CANT BELIEVE I LOST MY HP.
"My dear girl when you wanna be more alert.
Always misplaced your things.
Blame it on your carelessness la", Xuemei said.
I beg t differ.
I AM NOT ALWAYS, XUE!
OK FINE I AM! ): tsk.

URGH..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

; Bullet For My Valentine - Hand Of Blood.

I am missing you.

2006-01-01T04:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2006 t all!
(:

28DEC.

2005-12-28T18:17:00.000-08:00

My ex, Duncan appeared twice in my dream this month.
I vividly remember what was going on in the dream.
But shant elaborate much about it.

When i woke up,
In just one moment everything flashed back.
All the past memories came flooding back.
& images of you kept popping out.
But there is one thing i know fer sure.
I would NEVER step back t the past, not again.
Period.

Can someone please purchase a ticket fer me!
& bring me t the BSB's concert!
I am really desperately begging you t bring me there(!)
I've t forked out a hefty $70 which obviously i CANT!
But i've planned everything.
I will go t the airport t fetch them instead.
GOOD IDEA?
But that's if i've got the chance t even see Brian's head.
& there's a problem is that i am oblivious of the date when BSB is reaching Singapore. URGH.

I only go t concert if it's extravagant t me.
I only interested in those bands/singer whom i adore.
LIKE BSB, BUT WHY IS IT THAT I CANT AFFORD IT. URGH.

I was talking t my mum about Stefaine Sun.
She kept insisting that Sun used t be a lesbian.
& she brided her so called fake bf t show everyone that she isnt a lesbian at all.

I dont understand why my mum always contradict everything i say. GEE.

I received my result slip.
My this term gpa is 3.308 instead of 2.808!
That is impressive fer a person like me.
Acumulative gpa is then 2.808 instead of 2.5.
I am really relieved.
The chances of promoting t higher nitec is higher!

Some bitch (you know who) :
You think you're really pretty & attractive,
but the fact is converse is the case.
YOU'RE JUST A PAIN IN MY ARSE, YOU BITCH.
Fuck off.

This is just a random entry.
I am really bored at home.
Can someone give me something t relieve the tedium inside me(?)

; Nelly Ft/ Kelly Rowland - Dilemma.

~~I called you but you said you were busy.~~
I am perfectly fine with that.
& you even said you will call me back.
But i dont hear that coming, not at all.
I wait until now.
But always disappointment in the end.
I am oblivious of why you wouldnt call me at all.

I had a peculiar feeling,
kept thinking you are trying t avoid me.
Or am i just thinking way too much.
Whatever is it,
i will just have t try t digest everything and accept reality.
Perhaps i am asking too much.
Because there is one thing i know fer sure.
I will never have you fer my own.

The image in my head seems t be obscured now.
Sigh.

2005-12-27T14:43:00.000-08:00

**Counting down t the New Year 2006.
ONLY 5 days**

3 consecutive days of fun with my relatives.
Yesterday was @West Coast Park.
We were like just back t being a lil kid screaming, swinging etc..
& my uncles & my dad always never fail t cracked me up.
They were so hyper & active playing so hard.
Not thinking they are already in their mid 40s. Tsk.
Their hyper action's were really hilarous. & cute.
Needless t say it sent all of us into a laughing fit.

I just had so much fun. (:
& bowling was sweeeet. :D

I NEVER NEVER LIKE DOLLS.
Fer the umpteenth time i thought i told her before(?!)
& my aunt bought me a anak.
Picture this...
"You wake up finding yourself sitting beside a doll with that big round fucking scary eyes staring at you".
Fuck i swear it freaks me out please.
& dolls always stares menacingly at you if you ever notice. :/

I have been bingeing on ice-creams & cakes.
& if i am unable t control my diet.
HOHO i'm sure you will freak out when you see me.

My dad told me he's quitting smoking umpteen times.
& i am really sick of it fer whatever he tells me that fer.
But in the end he always got caught by us fagging.
He's smart enough t put the cigarette into a mentos box. Tsk.

My dad abused my spongie.
& he calls spongie nose a 'baby small dicky". RIGHT.
laughs.

I am so hungry.
& is someone going t appease my hunger(?)
Perhaps by cooking spaghetti fer me. :D

I swear my bro is a fucker.
Period.

; Avenged Sevenfold - Shattered By Broken Dreams.

You're the only one i'm after.

2005-12-25T14:12:00.001-08:00

Wish all a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!
(:

I just woke up not long.
Last night reached home around 5.40am.
& i should be sleeping much longer.
But gotta get ready t go my granny's house soon.
& later still going bbq at my great aunty's house!!
Faint.
Let me explain the big reaction t that.
My tummy fats shows it all.
Period.

Last night church carolling was a blast.
It was great great just simply great. (:
Head t airport after that with my cousins.
Dont ask me why we decided t go there.
Airport was quite a monotonous place after all.
Perhaps the reason i was with my aunty & her family. :/

Had a huge argument with my mum.
& ok fine i was partly at fault.
If she hasnt being so unreasonable,
i wouldnt have raised my voice in spite of anger t agitate her.
On the other hand,
note that i never like altercating with my mum.
& in the end i guess i was being lugubrious.
Tears started filling up my eyes.

Block158 is no longer safe.
Ever since my neighbour house got broken in,
i have become really paranoid about going home late.
& it really freaks me out when any guys seem secretive t me.
Or anyone who looked suspicious t me.
I really really feel insecure.
Sigh.

I am seriously ambivalent about my future.
If it hasnt because of my dilettante attitude towards studies,
i should be celebrating now fer going t higher nitec.
Groan.

Xuemei sent me a very ambiguous text last night.
It just cracked me up.
Whoever will send me that kind.
Only her please. Tsk.
Kinda stupid though. HAHA.

Out`

; Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On.

Every night in my dreams,
i see you, i feel you.

Near far wherever you are,
i believe that my heart does go on.

23DEC.

2005-12-23T15:22:00.000-08:00

Edited @9.22pm ;
Changed of blog layout.
& url as well. (:
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I'm all alone counting down...
**2 more days t CHRISTMAS

Yesterday went shopping @Bugis after work.
I'm a lil over the edge.
I bought two top & a mini skirt. Yay.
I seriously have t stop shopping.
I am fucking broke & having financial problem now. Pout.

Saw this Caucasian guy.
He shows a strong resemblance of IAN SOMERHALDER.
So handsome & tone, his puppy dog brown eyes.
In a word, hot. WOW :D

My lips is not getting any better.
Last night all the sudden it started bleeding.
I was really scared & tears start filling my eyes.
& i was told t refrain from eating CHOCOLATES.
Faint.

I witnessed my dearest & her bf altercating.
There was nothing i could do t help.
Well, i just tried t alleviate my dearest pain.

My neighbour house got broken in.
I think from what my dad sees,
he wouldnt dare t leave the keys outside the house agn t lure the burglar. Tsk.

GREAT, it's pouring now. Groan.
My swimming plan has gone fer a burton. URGH.

I cant wait till so long.
I must wait till March before i can appeal.
On second thought,
I feel like trying doing private studies instead.
Besides, my chances are really slim t go higher nitec.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? I am in such a dilemma. Snort.

I SWEAR i dread eating med.
OH WELL. What t do. Period.

Out`

; Avenged Sevenfold - Burn It Down.

What more can i ask fer christmas?
Just want you fer my own this christmas.

Heard that santa?