Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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EditedI feel so lost and down..
I needa talk t someone.
But there's no one i can turn t.
Who's even willing t listen..
I feel like crying..
But is there anyone who's even willing t let me a shoulder t lean on.
Im on the verge of a mental breakdown.
Whyy am i always in this kinda state ..
Whyy am i always so vulnerable ..
Whyy do i have t make myself look so depressed ..
Frustration whirled around my head every single moment.
I am going t explore with frustration.
I feel so like a ungrown kid.
I feel so naive.
I feel so stupid.
I feel so useless.
I hate myself.
Will someone just give me a tight slap and remind me t grow up !
Will someone just give me a tight slap and wake me up !
Do anyone even care !
I just need someone t tell me that my time is up and that i am no longer needed here.
Just whyy do i even exist...
Im tired..
So tired alr.
Ps.I'd love t drink my life away.....-
O wells !
It's been a while since i blogged.
But WHO f*ckin' CARES ! HA.
School called me and asked if i'd wanna consider another course. Shrugs.
Met up with Daphyyy after so long ! Yesterday went back t SJC t collect Bestie N's Cert, and i couldnt go in 'cause apparently that f*ckin' security guard refused t let me in. Still thinking i could go back 'cause i missed SJC food... But i f*ckin' needa make an appointment first. WTFF. I was feelin' rather livid though.. So i was outside the school waiting fer Bestie, basking under the HOTT sun.
Caught
Grandma's Boy sneak preview last night tgt with Rachel darling, my mum and my cousin. It was damn hilarious and gawd overall it was also a EXCRUCIATING SICK show la ! Thus, i f*ckin' couldnt believe my mum was actually beside me. GASP ! Okay, go catch it and you'l know WHYY ! Laughs.
Digressing, i really cant stand the austere mum of mine ! Anyone'd know whyy...
O'rite anyways HongKong Cafe after that before heading home.
(:
Ps. Whyy the hell there's a f*ckin' Hotel 81 near my house. Laughss.
Pss. That damn f*ckin' sign is telling me im having my period soooon ! ROAR.
Psss. I cant wait fer the
GREAT SINGAPORE SALE and
Vaunt !!!! Wooohooooo~
Pssss. Backache can be EXCRUCIATING. ):
Psssss. Pardon all the F*CKIN' word in virtually all sentences in my current post. Apparently, literally under the influence of Grandma's Boy. Laughsss.
My heart was beating extremely fast when i saw er...Rachel, you should know who !You could see the startled expression i gave yeh.The reason i have never been able to fathom...I could feel this rush in my chest.& a terrible feeling took over me on that very moment !Thus, im feelin' forlorn.Loneliness is engulfing me all over !If only time could stop at that very moment.......):Coheed And Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic.
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